So it’s Saturday Night, I have been thinking most of the evening about whether to post the now infamous beheading video. It was the highest ranked Google search this week for obvious reasons.
A lot of people expected it to be on my site. I’m not sure if thats good or bad.
The fact is I have been following developments of the story and too busy with other projects to address it.
So I’m online line chatting with a friend:
Ms. Rook: hi
JNU(ME): hi
Ms. Rook: i wanna talk to you about something
JNU(ME): ?
Ms. Rook signed off at 8:22:05 PM.
Ms. Rook signed on at 8:22:05 PM.
Ms. Rook signed off at 8:23:45 PM.
Ms. Rook signed on at 8:23:45 PM.
Ms. Rook: hello?
JNU(ME): ?
Ms. Rook: my aol keeps dying
Ms. Rook: i asked…did u see the beheading video
JNU(ME): nope
JNU(ME): did you?
Ms. Rook: i have it on pause right now
JNU(ME): how big is it..can you send it to me?
Ms. Rook: see i wrote this lil thing about why everyone should see it….but now i m all…weird about seeing it
JNU(ME): hmm…writing about this conversation should be pretty interesting too…lol
Ms. Rook: http://www.jquinton.com/archives/001089.html
JNU(ME): i kind of see your point
Ms. Rook: the whole point of my …piece….is that you know, although its a reality, its not a reality for ameriacns……
Ms. Rook: and yadda yadda—but the point is, now i m looking and feeling like—seeing it is gonna change my life ……..my mindstate…………….and i am not one of those ‘in the clouds’ utopian minded americans to begin with
JNU(ME): like i said about watching “the matrix” the first time..
Ms. Rook: yeah
JNU(ME): yeah it will effect you..but on the usa side of things…
JNU(ME): we heard about…but they show us more pics of the torture of Iraqi prisoners…
Ms. Rook: i know
Ms. Rook: like its ok to fuck them up
Ms. Rook: but not nick from pa
Ms. Rook: shall we watch it together?
JNU(ME): i just downloaded it…debating about posting it myself
Ms. Rook: did u see it
JNU(ME): my bandwidth was over 1gb with the album downloads…
Ms. Rook: lol
JNU(ME): no i havent seen it yet
JNU(ME): think i will host it on my “underground” server…
Ms. Rook: LOL….u got a downlow server
Ms. Rook: only u
JNU(ME): well i think seeing it will change your life…
Ms. Rook: u want me to call? then we can watch it and get it over with
JNU(ME): but you are changing it if you dont watch it…when you have the power to..
JNU(ME): if i could..i would post it on the JumboTron in Times Sqaure
Ms. Rook: wow, thats true
Ms. Rook: everyone needs to see it
Ms. Rook: biggest reason? and this reminds me of your ‘u know youre a new yorker when’
Ms. Rook: …people now see 9/11 as a nuisance, not a reality check
Ms. Rook: 9/11 is why we cant get to our planes faster, why we REALLY have to be there an hour ahead of time….
Ms. Rook: why it costs more to fly out of boston
Ms. Rook: not —- why 2,000 kids lost a parent or two
JNU(ME): i blogged about a sign I saw at the F stop..about building number 7 being “demolished” on purpose…
Ms. Rook: =-O
JNU(ME): and about micheal moores movie being banned..
JNU(ME): which ties the bush/bin laden fams together..
JNU(ME): and the documentary on pbs “the man who knew”…a guy who knew they were going to attack the wtc..but the fbi ddidnt listen..the irony is he worked in the WTC and was killed
JNU(ME): im reading the transaltion…and wondering why they (the U.S.media) arent even posting/mentioning that at least.
Ms. Rook: oh wow
JNU(ME): so…
JNU(ME): you going to watch it?
Ms. Rook: so THATS what the moore movie is about
Ms. Rook: yes i am
Ms. Rook: i am preparing msyelf by watching drudge’s stills
Ms. Rook: http://www.drudgereport.com/iiraq3.htm
JNU(ME): gangsta…
Ms. Rook: lol
JNU(ME): the “funny” thing is we are so desensitised from pop culture and video games and movies
Ms. Rook: yeah
JNU(ME): i just think mortal kombat “FATALITY” and I SHOULDNT be
Ms. Rook: lol
Ms. Rook: ….folks will buy thier kids these games but then get mad if they get exposed to the video
JNU(ME): just got off the phone with GRFX…
JNU(ME): he refuses to see it…i kind of see his point
Ms. Rook: …..
JNU(ME): most kids know video games are fake..
Ms. Rook: yeah, kids here
Ms. Rook: in other countries, kids are in the army
Ms. Rook: hey….call me at (440)***-****
We talk some more on the phone, shes is going to call me back, she still hasn’t seen the Drudge Report photos. At the time of this writing I still have NOT seen the video its 10pm.
There sits the link to Download the video, 29 seconds later the
8.4MB Windows Media File with an obscure filename is on my hard drive.
I remember before renaming it I was thinking should I call it “nickberg?” “nickberg_beheaded”?..for some reason it seemed disrespectful.
I end up renaming it to “beheading.wmv”
So at the time of this writing..I still havent viewed it.
I go for a walk and connect with a friend who has seen it but his wife and brother refuse to.
I walk for 20 blocks and there is a massive thunderstorm.
I end up getting soaked in the rain but I don’t run for cover.
I go by a Samurai tenet from the Hagakure:
“There is something to be learned from a rainstorm. When meeting with a sudden shower, you try not to get wet and run quickly along the road. But doing such things as passing under the eaves of houses, you still get wet. When you are resolved from the beginning, you will not be perplexed, though you still get the same soaking”
Ever since reading that I don’t run in the rain.
Plus I heard you get wetter by running in the way anyway.
You can use this Javascript calculator to figure it out.
Anywho…
Back to the topic:
I made another call and it seems to be some inconsistency with different versions.
My file is 8.4MB, his is 5.3MB. Could be length or the quality of the video. I’ll confirm this later.
It clocks in at 5:37 total running time.
I go get something to eat, chillout watch tv (The Shield which I taped earlier this week) and decide to watch the video later.
(it is now 4am)
….I must say the video is disturbing.
Is my life changed? Yes.
Did it gross me out? No…but not how I imagined it would be.
I guess I have a strong stomach for it but have the empathy for Nick Berg and know the reason why MOST people DO NOT want to view it.
Why the “mainstream” media won’t show it is probably due to the the convoluted logic of political correctness and not wanting to assault our sensitivities, they have by default or design instead chosen to insult our sensibilities.
I mean this isnt when the R. Kelly or Paris Hilton videos which were sent to me as well.
This is not for shock value or entertainment purposes and should not be looked at in that way at all.
As of writing this I have seen it 3 times and noticed some issues that have been raised by other bloggers….
…whether or not HE was ALIVE when he was beheaded.
Time SMTPE (time code numbers) shift from 13:26:25 where he states his name,etc.
Then to 2:48:35-2:44:35 and then to 13:45:50 where the actual beheading begins.
Working for more than 15 years in television production I know that this is either different tape sources used and edited together or drifting timecode which I doubt.
Bad editing is what it is.
Like Fox News: “we report. You decide.”
After much debate and thoughtful consideration of the victim, his family I will make the video available in the downloads section and for direct viewing on the site.
What made me come to the decision?
5 reasons:
1. I listened to an interview from Nick Berg’s former roommate on NPR.
The last thing he was told that Mr. Berg was going sailing in Turkey.
He was surprised that his mother called and reported him missing.
Nick Berg was given safe passage and a plane ticket to leave the country and refused.
2. You do NOT talk about Fight Club.
3. Michael Berg, father of 26-year-old Nicholas Berg, told CNN at his home in West Chester, Pennsylvania, that his son went to Oklahoma University several years ago and allowed people later identified by U.S. authorities as terrorists to use his computer.
4. “Nick was taking a course at a remote campus that was near the airport and he was on a bus and some terrorist people ? no one knew they were terrorists at the time, they were just fellow students ? were also taking the bus,” said Berg.
Someone asked him basically to let him use his computer, and he did. It turned out that this guy was a terrorist and that he used my son’s email, among many other people’s email.”
5. U.S. officials, according to CNN, say Berg shared his computer ? and his password ? with one individual, and that password somehow ended up in the possession of Moussaoui, a French citizen arrested one month before the Sept 11 attacks.
Hmmmmm….
5. Ok. if he was just some guy from Philly who let potential terrorists use his computer AND email I could let it slide. But NOW he is just the SAME some guy from Philly who let potential terrorist use his computer AND email and ends up with a telecommunications company in IRAQ and gets beheaded.
I might let someone use my computer but NOT my email.
How many of you will let a stranger on a bus use YOUR computer AND email account freely?
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“We must be the change we wish to see in the world.”?Gandhi
“Always changing; everything for good, nothing for nothing.”?Flying Hawk, Sioux Chief